Thursday, February 3, 2011

A Conversation

10 years ago I was ready to get out of my hometown and make my mark in this world.  I just knew exactly where my life was going and how I was going to get there.

6 years ago I bought a dress, and in that dress I became a wife to a man who has made one helluva husband. I had no idea where my life was going and I was okay with it, I knew I'd get to where I was going when I needed too.

5 years ago we were constantly surrounded by friends and parties and had little to worry about other than a car payment and making it to work on time. We would spontaneously head to Galveston for the weekend with no plans other than probably having to sleep in the truck - we had life in abundance.

2 years ago I was counting down the days till graduation and simultaneously dreading it for fear of losing the great friendships I had made. I was worried I wouldn't be able to find a better job, but didn't want to leave the safety of my current one. Alfred and I began to truly enjoy our lifestyle and often would end the day sitting on the back porch with a 6-pack and some country music in the background.

1 year ago I was thoroughly convinced my uterus hated me because I wasn't pregnant. My best friend was getting married (I had a kickass dress to wear!) and I finally fit into a pair of skinny jeans without feeling like a buttered up walrus in a scuba suit.

And less than 24 hours ago, I had one of the best conversations of my life. 

I have to admit, that while I miss moment's from my past and dwell on them during 5:30am feedings (too late to go back to bed and too early to get a good foot on the day!) if I had the option to go back - no way in hell would I. 

Lillie makes my now so much better than my then could have ever hoped to be.


Anonymous said...

LOVE IT!! She is hilarious!!


sandy said...

That is a wonderful conversation, and you will have so many, many more that are equally as amazing! Your blog is just awesome! You write beautifully...and I am NOT surprised by that at all! :O) I am SO happy for you...for all of you!

Jenna L said...

Tamara! I am crying right now. You are an amazing Mother. Moments like these will disappear so quickly. Like a thred that dwindles in the wind on a breezy summer day. Did that sound good or what? Sorry, I'm trying to attemt to be as good as you. Not working. Love ya!